Sunday, November 3, 2013
Monday, September 16, 2013
"God is teaching each person a different thing. It just so happens that patience is your current lesson. Just like a test, not everyone can pass, but that's okay too. What matters is that you don't give up, and you do your best. You will be happy again. Life will surprise you with good things. That's why, if you ever find yourself thinking about ending your life, imagine all the amazing experiences you'd be missing out on. Don't give up. You will get there. God will take you to the finish line."
Saturday, July 13, 2013
"It sucks you know. I just want to feel something."
I thought I'd give it another chance and that this time things could be different. But you really can't fake how you feel about someone. No matter how much you force yourself to.
I desperately wanted to fall in love again and be with someone. I didn't want to be by myself. But I ended up feeling more alone than ever.
Now I don't know what to do.~
I thought I'd give it another chance and that this time things could be different. But you really can't fake how you feel about someone. No matter how much you force yourself to.
I desperately wanted to fall in love again and be with someone. I didn't want to be by myself. But I ended up feeling more alone than ever.
Now I don't know what to do.~
Gone, Gone, Gone.
Everything is so confusing. I'm so excited to leave, yet at the same time I'm scared that I'm gonna miss this place more than I can handle.
I never thought I'd cry but it's all I've been doing these past two days. It's sad seeing other people leave, but it's another thing to be the one who's leaving. It's also the scariest feeling in the world to realize that you're parting with everything around you that's familiar, and that you're about to face the biggest change in your life.
I never really understood how it's okay for two people to live in the same town and not see each other for months but it's seemingly a lot sadder when they're miles apart. Some people think it's silly, I thought it was too. But not anymore. Being on opposite sides of the world with the people you love does not feel silly and it really isn't the same thing as living in the same place but not seeing each other. It's actually quite depressing cause you know you can't just get inside your car and drive to their place like you once could.
When I saw one of my closest friends suddenly burst into tears in front of my doorstep, it nearly broke my heart. I spent the rest of the night and the following day locking myself in my room, listening to music that made me want to jump off a bridge while going through old pictures - which just made me want to jump even more.
But I know it's going to be okay. "We'll all float on okay". I believe that. I know we'll all do good in our lives. Sure, I'll miss them. I'll miss everyone I love. But it's all going to be okay. I may not always remember that but deep down I'll always know that it's true.
:)
I never thought I'd cry but it's all I've been doing these past two days. It's sad seeing other people leave, but it's another thing to be the one who's leaving. It's also the scariest feeling in the world to realize that you're parting with everything around you that's familiar, and that you're about to face the biggest change in your life.
I never really understood how it's okay for two people to live in the same town and not see each other for months but it's seemingly a lot sadder when they're miles apart. Some people think it's silly, I thought it was too. But not anymore. Being on opposite sides of the world with the people you love does not feel silly and it really isn't the same thing as living in the same place but not seeing each other. It's actually quite depressing cause you know you can't just get inside your car and drive to their place like you once could.
When I saw one of my closest friends suddenly burst into tears in front of my doorstep, it nearly broke my heart. I spent the rest of the night and the following day locking myself in my room, listening to music that made me want to jump off a bridge while going through old pictures - which just made me want to jump even more.
But I know it's going to be okay. "We'll all float on okay". I believe that. I know we'll all do good in our lives. Sure, I'll miss them. I'll miss everyone I love. But it's all going to be okay. I may not always remember that but deep down I'll always know that it's true.
:)
Tuesday, January 1, 2013
Saturday, December 1, 2012
Sometimes I get this sudden fear that I won't get the chance to live my life the way I want to, and that I'll never figure out who I really am.
It seems like everyone's done it all. It seems like they've always known who they are, where they fit in, what they should do.
But not me.
And it annoys me because why is it that they can do it but I can't?
I wanna try everything, I wanna go everywhere, and as cliche and cheesy as this may sound, I just wanna stay true to myself, whoever that is..
But why can't I? Why can't I? Why can't I?
The scary thing is I don't really know what's stopping me. And why I can't get over it.
I always thought that moving away to another place would be the answer. But what if it doesn't change a thing? What if it all just stays the same?
This honestly scares me so much.
I don't wanna feel trapped forever.
It seems like everyone's done it all. It seems like they've always known who they are, where they fit in, what they should do.
But not me.
And it annoys me because why is it that they can do it but I can't?
I wanna try everything, I wanna go everywhere, and as cliche and cheesy as this may sound, I just wanna stay true to myself, whoever that is..
But why can't I? Why can't I? Why can't I?
The scary thing is I don't really know what's stopping me. And why I can't get over it.
I always thought that moving away to another place would be the answer. But what if it doesn't change a thing? What if it all just stays the same?
This honestly scares me so much.
I don't wanna feel trapped forever.
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